Since my mentioning of Babu talking God talk to my parents the other day I thought it would be a good time to address the subject from my point of view. I knew from the beginning that Babu is religious, I can’t remember exactly when he clarified this to me, but i’m sure it was within the first days of out meeting. Babu is a Hindu.
Me, well, I can say Christianity is familiar to me – through learning about Easter and Christmas etc at school, I was Christened as a baby but that’s pretty much as far as my religion goes, I don’t really have any and have certainly never practiced or prayed. I don’t have any problems with religion, or people who practice, thus far it simply hasn’t been for me – I find (from the little knowledge I have) Bible stories to be a little outdated, and all this God/Jesus stuff a little hard to swallow.
Since meeting Babu I have been trying to make the effort to learn about his faith and understand it a little better . So far i have read the Bhagavad Gita, and am halfway through reading “Hinduism For Dummies” – please don’t laugh – at least I’m trying!
My thoughts on Hinduism so far are mainly positive, although I am getting progressivly more confused about the different Gods as I read further and further into it! A lot of the moral foundation of it resonates with me a lot and it is something I feel quite comfortable with. I’m not quite at the point of being converted though. If I am completely honest I would feel uncomfortable praying, i would feel like a hyporite, after all this time not believing in anything it would feel wrong to me to suddenly acknowledge something as being there, like “oh hi – i believe in you now” and also the fact that I don’t have a clue what i believe!
I admire that people put so much faith into something, and that it will carry them through life. I am a strong believer in fate – I am almost certain that everything is pre-destined to happen, but at the same time I still believe I need to take action to help my destiny along a bit. Like if I apply for a new job – if I hear nothing, I figure it’s fates way of telling me I should stay where I am just now – and that’s how i will carry on – I will try things but if they are not meant to be theyre not meant to be – simple! As well as fate I’ve always believed the concept of Karma, which I now know is a big part of Hinduism – I think i’m perhaps a little late to avoid re-incarnation this time around but my learning is surely taking me closer to that good place.
Babu said to me that us meeting each other was God’s way of trying to get closer to me – I thought this was a really nice thought, and in a way it is already true. I’m not quite ready to start praying and all that just yet, but I’m really enjoying learning and who knows where that will lead in the future.