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Time to say goodbye

Every time he was here, the sun came out. This not some metaphor or romantic notion, it is fact, perhaps some work of the Gods, but the weather was always bright whenever he came. Until today.

I’m not one for paying attention to the weather forecast, most likely the reason I am often found in completely non-weather-appropriate clothes, I think interest in the forecast is something that comes with age. But my parents would always chat about it, and there became a running joke, not just between me and him, but also with my parents eventually, that we needn’t worry about the weather this weekend when he’s in port, it’ll be sunny. it always is.

But today is different, it is grey and drizzly, the sun, bless it, is still there trying to break through, and it does occasionally through a crack in the clouds, but ultimately today is not like the rest. For today may just have been the end, the last time we ever see each other. Continue reading


Off I go….

In one weeks time, after an almost 24 hour trip, I will be at Babu’s house.

Oh myyyyy goooodness! Am I scared/worried/nervous/totally freaking out!

I don’t know why I do this to myself but I worry about everything.  There’s the whole touching feet thing, meeting the parents thing, new culture thing (I gather again the culture will be very different from that I experienced in Mumbai), I know it’ll probably be fine but doesn’t stop me being nervous as hell!!

Yet before I go I also have 5 days to complete a major project at work – I’m also in a panic about that! (what am i like eh?!) which is unfortunately preventing me from having any excitement that may be there since I have to deal with all that before I am allowed to be excited!

So that’s why I’m checking in here now, It’s quite likely you won’t hear from me in a while, hopefully in a few weeks time I will be back full; of wonderful experiences and stories, telling how silly it was to be so nervous!

Wish me luck hey! I’ll be back soon 🙂

That moment you realise you’re doing it too…

It’s happened…. I’ve become a head wobbler!

It took two years but its happened, I ‘caught’ the head wobble! I don’t know how long I’ve been at it since I only noticed the other week on holiday when someone did it back to me in reply.

Awkward? Well could possibly be if I don’t know said person, but they fortunately knew who my other half is which makes more sense of it, even though he himself is not much of a head wobbler!

But come to think of it I actually do do it quite often these days, so I do worry that there might be an occasion one day where someone might think I am mocking them.
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Life Is mad

I’ve not been around for a while since life has been pretty mad, well, still is, unfortunately work and other things mean I don’t get a minute to myself right now, but I just wanted to say I’m still here, and I will get blogging again, and I hope that’s soon!


I’m back


Hello there!

Oh my how time flies, almost a month since my last post… Oops, but holiday, and jet lag ever since have left me a bit lack lustre.

And my plans for writing whist I was away completely went down the plug hole, it was quite a relaxing time but at the same time busy if that makes sense – I saw babu between all of shifts this time which made my days a little fragmented to say the least

Things are good between us. beforehand again though I did get a little worried (like last year), it had been over 3 months since we last saw each other so there was bound to be nerves, but it was all fine and were as natural in each others company as before.

Babu is pretty determined this is his last contract on the cruises, he’s just tired, his work is very physical with long demanding hours. I tell him better the devil you know and all that, going back to India he could be working just as hard with half as much money. I think I may have got through to him a little, if he can get promotion he will stay a little longer since the work becomes less intensive. But he has had 2 knocks in as many weeks with managers buddies slipping into jobs that were lined up for him and since I am a veteran of the “face doesn’t fit” mantra at work, I completely understand how he is feeling. Alas, when I spoke to him last he said he will go and see a senior manager to talk about what happened, and make his career ambitions clear, so at least he is giving it one last chance, much better than the babu I spoke to a week ago who had given up all hope.

Entirely from a selfish point of view I want him to remain on the cruise ships, I just can’t imagine conducting our relationship super-long distance only seeing each other 1-2 times a year until we end up together in whichever country, how it is works pretty well for the time being.

And also I am really keen to get work on the ships as well, so it would be a huge shame if I got a job just as he left! Hey ho, well see what happens, live each day as it comes, since no one knows what the future holds!

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